A somewhat happy girl!

Yeah man! Even I can do right sometimes
I wonder if this is like, my real big chance or not, maybe I should try, I might get caught, I might get bored, I might get happy and I might actually fall in love.

I'm not the kind of person who sees someone and know I love someone. I can feel attracted, but I don't fall in love.
This might just be it.
It has not been love at first sight. But it could maybe become love at 4th or 5th sight!
Well, I will see about it at the end of the month, then I will have a few days to really have a good time!

After spending a night close to talking, talking and more talking, there could be something more than just a night.
Love doesn't strike, love grows.

I do feel a tingeling feeling in my stomach when I think of him, when I think of the first kiss, but... Well, we'll see

A bit tired

At the moment I'm really tired of everything that has to do with Japan, or their culture or anything!
I haven't been reading or thinking or doing anything else than working with Japan, Japan, Japan...

Well, I've learned a lot about their history, even though I don't remember many names and I will have good quality on the historical facts in my essay, and hopefully it will help me a lot for the Japanese film course the fall, but... hey! I seriously will not read one word about Japan until then!
I'm sooo looking forward to when my True Blood season will arrive, and it's Vampire Weekend! Bring it on!
Nosferatu and True Blood and write an essay about that!
Oh, and Twilight too, but I could do without that...

The sun outside is tempting, and I think I will finnish the reading sitting outside, first of all, the computer won't take my time if I go outside either! I do need it, but the pauses for facebook just get longer and longer ;)

Bright, bright future!

When a girl is happy she really is happy! There is so many things in her life that can both help and, turn the everything upside down.
Problems are supposed to be solved and that's precisely what I will do!
I will be able to flap my wings about a bit! To go to Stockholm in winter might not be the worst thing to happen to me!
To get away isn't the worst thing really. Might get a bit of a well needed perspective on the world to. That I will be doing something that I really like at the same time just don't make it worse I'd say!
So right now there are about as many things making the future bright as it is making it dark!
Well, soon one of my two big essays is finnished, will do a bit of extra reading before I finnish it off, but I don't think there is to much more to add to it.
Then I will as soon as I can get the other one going, but that will be a lot eaiser to write as there is more facts to find everywhere than to the other one.

And my laptop is most probably able to be fixed! Which is rather amazing! And to that I will get a 1TB of extern hard drive to put all the stuff on!
Bring on pictures and films!
And hopefully I will be able to do a complete re-installation of my o.s!

On the bad side... A minor fuck up with my courses have happened, but when thinking about it, realizing it won't be to bad anyway I think. As I was going to be having a term with nothing to do anyway except the work sample I need to have done! And I could always take it a bit easier than I have recently, and have a bit more time to do the work sample or something, maybe maje sure I got some spare time even!
I will have to see how many courses missing and stuff! But I think it will sort itself out in the end!

So, yeah, I would say life is pretty bright now, even though I got a lot of work to do, and a few sleepless night ahead of me! But it will be woth it in the end to have another 22,5 ESTC's for my bachelors degree.

Right now though, I'm looking forward to my trip next week! Will be so nice to see the ocean and stuff, se a town I have been to twice, but actually never seen.

I'm so excited about this autumn that I can't even get a proper blog post ffs! lol
And my dreams might just get true... Hopefully. They are a bit odd, but hey... They work.

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, extremley beautiful!

Just a few thoughts...

When starting to read the third book about Japanese fairytales and ghost tales I'm wondering if I really will be pulling this off!
As I realised that if I can manage to get a passing grade in the economics test in august, I will have money for the autumn... That would be pretty awesome, even though it's pretty tough!

But I don't know when I will be able to get the litterature courses done if I don't get a passing grade on them in the beginning of August!

Also, the fact my computer has broke, doesn't make it easier! I hate it!
And I seriously need to be able to get power to it so I can save all my photos and stuff even if I buy a new one! Suck a duck, I hate it!
Found a really nice computer for sale, that I would love to get, but I also need a new refrigerator... Hmm, what to choose?
Well, if I get a new computer, I will be able to get the money for a new fridge anyway!

I'm, even though I'm pretty pissed off at the computer now, lookin sooo much forward to the future though, and I had such a lovely dream last night!
Even though, if I try and get a dream lexicon, the stuff it's about is not to bright, well, depending on what dream lexicon you use...
But if it would come true... Lucky me! =)

Also I hope my brother can help me with my laptop! Seriously, I'm using my mothers now and it's making me crazy!
No Firefox, no Vista, no passwords saved, no bookmarks saved wich I need to be able to get my essays going!
GAH!

Well, I really hope Miyasawa Kenji's fairytales will get me in a better mood, will try and finish the book today so I can start economics this evening, preferably BEFORE the world cup final!

Come on Spain! Come on Cesc!

That spanish manager has to be retared to not let Sesc play! He's one of Spains best players ever, so needed in his team, they can't win without him, and he's on the bench in the nationals?
I seriously don't get it! I mean, he's amazingly good!

O well, football is never logical...
<3 Miroslav Klose<3

Oh, and I think my hair finally has decided to start growing! About time! Gonna put in some extensions in october or something, that will be kinda cool, as long as I can get them in the same hair colour as my own is! And speaking about nothing. I do miss England!

Well this things are the main things, the tuff that's going on in my mind now:
* The Dream, about someone I migh have became a bit to fond of, especially when I barelly know him!
* Missing England! Badly!
* Looking forward to what I'm gonna do in just a few years! + My bachelors degree!
* Going away in the end of July!
* Cesc not allowed to play in spain!
* My computer and my essays!

Well, thats a lot for a small girl to have to think about!

I wanna be a Vampire!

It doesn't feel like I do anything else than read, read, read.
But I feel like I'm gettning nowhere either! Just so annoying!

Just been finnishing up Suzy McKee Charna's A Vampire Tapestry (in Swedish, and I feel like reading it in English instead, as I think a lot of stuff got lost in the translation).
A book that I didn't have much hope for, but I think it was a bit interesting anyway.

The idea of a lonely vampire, not knowing if there even was one more of him. A vampire who did live trough the different ages, but didn't actually LIVE in the different eras of time. Not knowing who he was or whom he was going to be. Also the affect some people got on his life. First it feelt a bit silly, you knew the therapist would get to him, still, the book was very readable.
I think the main idea with reading the book while discussing feminism and vampires is how the women got to him. How they very attracted to him, but HE didn't see them as sexual, he was not at all interested in sex, except for the few occasions when he need to sleep with someone to get food.

I'm not sure I will recommend the book, it was odd, and it was for sure not the best of books Ive read, and I didn't find it amusing in the way I think I was supposed to, but in a new way how vampires work. This one was not affected by day light, he could drink water, he didn't have fangs...
But he did drink blood, and I think that and the fact he couldn't die was the only things compared to more traditionall vampires he had.
The book didn't really tell us so much about the vampire and his weaknesses or strenghts(he even dismissed the book Dracula in the book), but the books was about his mental state, going from strong to weak, just because some, whom he thought was weak proved to be real strong, even stronger than him perhaps?

As I feel the vampires are getting wussier and wussier as more of them we get, there is no one really as mean as Dracula anymore. Apparently we don't want vampires who isn't human anymore, we prefere sparkling vampires over those hard core ones who starts to burn when they get in the sun, and I was a bit dissappointed when even Edward Wayland almost turned into a nice person!

Vampires are supposed to be evil, they live of human blood, they can not keep thinking of others when it comes to animal insticts.
I think the part where Weyland catches a doe and lets it go as he realizes he won't be able to keep the doe blood down as his body has refined to only human blood after they turned into the stronger specimen, is really good.
But looking at Twilight, where they drink only animals blood, would that mean the Cullens are evolving the "wrong" way? But on the other hand, the question on animals blood is brought up in Buffy, Interview with a Vampire, and in True Blood/Sookie Stackhouse novels they even speak about "synthetic blood".

Well, for me, Spike will always be the firs, the main vampire, together with Drusilla, closely followed by Dracula.