Some decisions are easy, some, a lot harder than expected, and I am already nervous for the future. I mean, if everything go as planned, in less than 11 months, I will move from here to Växjö! If that don't succeede, I will move here to Uppsala. I mean, things could be less scary. And if neither of it succeeds, I will take part 1 of 2 of a documentary course in Linköping. Life is just as hard as you make it!
Yeah I know I live on my own at the moment, but I have my parents less than an hour away by car, I have my grandmother and brothers and friends in the same town, the only one not that close, is my boyfriend, which I still have to be on a train for a minimum of 1½ hour to see, wherever I go.
But I want this. I think it is right.
The hardest thing to leave?
Except my parents and family, it must be the aikido/kali clubs, specifically my sensei(s), and this means Iwill come home as often as I can, to train, hard.
Even though it scares me, it fills me with a calmness. I think it will be alright, I have about found someone to live in my flat while I am away (someone who will not re-paint or destroy it in an other way!!!) and I am good to go.
The decision was quite easy to make when I realised what amazing film teachers there is in Växjö (at least so far) and when realising exactly what I want to study in English, the decision to at some point in life living in Uppsala was not that hard either. Life is good when decisions are so hard, but still so easy to make.
So in mid-august 2011, my stuff will be put on a trailer and going somewhere else in Sweden. It is already making me nervous as hell to think of sometimes. This flat, that I have put down so much effort in making "my own personal space", will be someone else, and I have to live in a rental flat, with most probably light colours. Just that fact makes me nervous!
Next summer I will (probably) take my last class in a long while in Karlstad (and I have even noticed that one that I want to take, have a good similar one in Linköping), but maybe one day I will come back and study (more?) Documentary filming.
Well, bring on the future, I am ready for all your takes and turns!
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